How do I start?
Hi Bebs! Upon reading this now I know you’ve realized what I was telling you. I thought ways on how I could atleast probably give you something “inexchange of” the things you do for me every late at night.
Posting on famous social sites is an option. But there are so many things that I would like to tell you by which I know circumstances won’t allow me. So I’ve decided to make a page just for you. ♡
It’s been years since the last time I’ve made something like this for you. I honestly don’t know what my theme’s going to be like. If I should recall our story, or should atleast give you a message here cause, the last time I made a note for you were those times we’re just starting as a couple.
Looking back on those years, we were so naive and playful. I know our relationship never started right. I know in the very beginning no one, even I would thought “Us” could last. I can still recall the very first time I saw you and, I never thought how I look at you now would be different on how I look at you back then.
Meeting you I could say, is one of God‘s greatest miracle He has given me. Earlier we were talking about what our life and what we could be if we never met each other. We’ve put sarcasms and jokes in our conversation like we could have ended up in a more stable relationship unlike ours or we’re happy go lucky mingling with other people. But set aside those, I hope you remember the last thing I told you and I mean it. I would rather not have a much stable life or relationship than not having you. And If I could change my future now, I will never trade the moment I fell in love with you.
Despite everything that had happened to us, I always think what have I done in my previous life to deserve someone like you. Ren, thank you for teaching me almost everything I know I would never learn from anyone else. Going to church is one. But seriously, you’ve made me felt all the worst and all the best one could feel. Though you give up at times, I still thank you for your unending patience. You never fail to make me realize that I am so blessed of having you because you’ve made me understood that the most important things in life have been accomplished by people who have kept on trying when there seems to be no hope at all.
We always thought of an ideal relationship. A relationship so perfect that we can never have over the years. And I think, that’s what makes our relationship so special and unique. We never had a relationship which everyone would think “we could last”, we never even had a relationship that’s been stable for a year and we never had a relationship that is so ideal. But, if two couples would be in our position, of all the problems we’ve had. I don’t think those ideal relationships could surpass everything we’ve both been through. We never have a relationship so ideal because what we have is real.
We’re both unsure what the future may bring. There will be times wherein you and I may hate each other, not understand each other, blame each other, and tell each other words in a state of anger. I know my promises are overused and at most times I’m at the point where I’m on the verge of proving you how much I love you. Bebs, if one day I do that, please don’t give up on me. I know we’re not yet a family but I want you to know that on my position now, you’re the person I want to have kids with. You’re the person I want to sleep and see everytime I wake up in the morning. You’re the person I want to grow old with cause one thing’s I know is for sure, You are my greatest love. I know I couldn’t find another man who’ll love me like you do. That’s why I want to spend the rest of my life loving you.
I love you Ren. Always have and always will.